An inner child or simpy a hobby!

There are those who enjoy the arts so much that they choose to make a life long career out of their own art. There are also those like myself who paint as a hobby, while I am not the best I am sure of that. People often wonder why do I paint such whimsicle things like the flower that I have recently painted. The answer is I dont know why I paint things as such, I just put my brush in the paint and get to it. I never really know what the end result is going to be because I never plan my art. I simply let my expressions flow through the brush onto the surface that I am painting. I dont always have a canvas so I recycle things that I have around the house. Some times Ill have an old cardboard box so I will cut it down and paint on it, infact the picture to the left was painted on cardboard. While I call this a hobby it is more, it is my form of expression. Whether I feel glum or happy or lovestruck, what ever I feel comes out in my art. While I do tend to paint whimsicle flowers no matter my mood, if you look at the colors you can tell my mood. The flowers often represent people, meaning myself or others, and you can tell this by the five petals. O occasion I do add the four petal flour and three leaves.

I have had it!

I have had it! I am tired of all these labels that we give people. For colored folks we have to call them African Amerincan. What is wrong with being call American, what does your skin color have to do with it. I AM NOT A RACIST PERSON; however people believe so because of my vew point. My view is this; It does not matter what the color of you skin is were your ancestors came from or even where you were born. White people don't call themselves Anglo American, so why does everyone need a label. If "All men created equal" then why don't we treat them as such. Why don't homosexual couples get family insurance? Well, it is because they are not allowed to be married, which I think is bull*#@^, because it is violating civil right to deny them that joy. While I do love my country, I think we still have a long way to go. This country is stuck in a bottomless pit of stupidity. While I am proud to say that we have come a ways, even as far to elect a black president, but it still should not have been that big of a deal. He is simply a man runing our country doing the best he can, and trying to get us out of the rut that we are in. Somedays I dont't want to leave home and face the stupidity of people, it sucks.

The cruelty of children never leaves!

As your growing up, sometimes you teased. So you go home tell your parents, they say "it'll all get better when your adults". WHAT A LIE. People are still just as adolesent and cruel as they are when they are children. The only difference is these people now have money to fund their cruel pranks. I have seen children make fun of their peers, and as a child they have not learned when teasing becomes harassment. As an adult there is a certain expectation that you know this, yet still some people are either too ignorant or just plain cruel to realize what they do. As child I did get teased like many other peers of mine. Unlike the other peers, I was unafraid of fighting back and got in quite a bit of trouble for fighting, but I didn't the trouble I just wanted the person who teasing feel just as bad as they made me feel. Then as I grew up such harsh no longer hurt because I realized It doesn't matter what the opinion one person was. The only opinion that truely mattered was my own. So people stoped teasing me and started at someone else; I was raised to protect those who could not protect themselves, so now I was getting introuble again for protecting someone. As the times pass children stop using words to hurt their peers they start thinking of new ways to hurt them, like pranks and hitting. So the closer they get to adulthood the crueler the words pranks and other devices they use to hurt become. Why is it man kind can't find a way to be at peace even at peacable times. When we are not at war we are in some fighting ourselves in our own country. We seek to destroy ourselves and I honestly know not why we do this. We the compacity for self controll yet we do not use it.

All the pretty stupid people

There are a lot of dumb people. As an American I had compulsary education until I was 17, this is actually a good thing believe it or not. Now a days you cant even get a job without a lovely highschool Diploma. So by the time you turn most people just figure "Well I have made it this far, whats wrong with one more year". Now there are those, who think that there is no need for education and that ingnorance is bliss. Well here is a message, ignorance is anything but bliss. Stupid is a cruel word, but what else can I call someone who has given up without even trying. Life is just one big ass pool, if you dont step out into the water you will never adjust to the tempurature. Therefore you never truely live without knowing what could have been.

Finding that Person!

Finding people online can be risky, but since when life is it fun to play it safe. Now there are preditars that you must be careful and watch for, but what about all those who aren't like that. Now for those of us who do take the chance and get lucky enough to find someone, it is still just as scary as meeting them on the street. You know that happenstance kinda meeting, like a guy bumping into a girl and her books or things fall on the ground. They for some unknown reason have instint chemistry, it is the same online. You meet someone in a chating room or a dating site even, let the person get to know you. Then you find yourself wondering, if this is worth dating, and then wondering "why do I want to date this person, I just met them online" Then for some reason you start, why you feel so strongly about person you've never met in person.
I think that meeting people online is very similar to actual meetings outside of cyberspace, It is just expanded instead of stiking one small area, you see the world. Maybe one day you could find that one person that perfectly compadable with, and fall in love. Should it matter where you met? I say no, it only matters that met! "Love may be infinate, but it is hard to find." quote by Courtney

Those rainy days!

Have you ever had one of those days...You know, those days when it's raining and all things seem sadning. You reminice about an old special someone, and wonder it could have been like had things not ended. Those days that seem to be the longest.

I miss the water the oceans and Such!

I truely do miss such things as water. Living in a desert, there is a certain lacking in moisture. Too little rain, and too far from any large bodies of water. I miss being able to reach a beach in a few hours. Now the nearest beach is 8 hours away and out of the country.
What I wouldn't give for a little lake to call my own.