HMMM (intense thinking)

Well, I am now at the point of which I wonder. Why do I even try? Honestly dating is just some sort of twisted game for us to be tortured in to submision. How are we expected to constantly go back and set our hearts free just to be burned agian and again. Its the never ending prossess. I often consider throughing out dating until I meet the uncontrolable need that we all face. The ID as we call it. However, I am for some reason unable to do this, I must continue in search of the cliche "Mr. Right" because deep down i always have believed in love. I dont like admitting it, but its true. Perhaps I'm masacistic.

In other news... I personally think that the world has far too many idiots, and lazy teenagers who wont step away from their guitar hero and rockband long enough to get some exercise and get a nice tan. There are becoming fewer and fewer athletic children. What ever happened to an imagination, the time when kids where given a teddy bear and it became the child's best friend for a couple of years. Nooooo now everybody just drops their kids in front of the electronic babysitter, and now they wonder why their children will not go outside and play. It is truly disgraceful. And to top it all nobody takes education seriously any more. Such a waste of human resources.

Why

Just when I give up on finding someone anyone, a boyfriend of any kind a guy asks me out. Now normaly I wouldnt be appossed to such a great idea, except I have always liked this guy, again not the big problem. You see the problem is that he is leaving in a few days to go to a big Unaversity in another state. Apparently he has liked me for a while and was too nervous to ask. So this is infuriating me because I have spent since january looking for a guy and a week before this one that i have always really, really liked he decieded to ask me out. This is pure torture, i mean honestly why would i find someone only to have them renched away from me. Not only taken away but to another state twenty eight hours away. And to make matters worse he is exactly my type; he is tall, handsom, very intelligent. What did I do to deserve such torchure. Is this a test from a higher being.